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CINDY
my curiosity for you eats into my sleep.





IN MY HEART I KEEP:

READ
Friday, March 30, 2007

i'm running a slight fever so i stayed home the whole day!
I'M A POTATO COUCH!
staying at home makes me cranky.
so, just for some laugh!
try this out:

Look at the chart below & say the COLOR, not the word!
YELLOW BLUE ORANGE
BLACK RED GREEN
PURPLE YELLOW RED
ORANGE GREEN BLACK
BLUE RED PURPLE
GREEN BLUE ORANGE
Ooops! it's the left - right conflict!
Right brain tries to say the color but your left brain insists on reading the word.
okay, just chatted with my twin.
(:
that makes me cranky too.
we were discussing abt degrading our phone to n7373.
she takes the bronze black, i take the black chrome.
oh man! i ADORE!
(shall add it to my wish list?)
few months back i was just blogging abt how much i'm thinking of degrading.
hehe.
when i'm back frm Malaysia then we shall check it out!
okay,
i choose to go on this kampong trip..
to see the hen protect her chicks!
hope i dont come back like a barbarian
or smell like i jst rolled out from the mud.
maybe i'll smuggle a pet pig back?
whee(:
too bad! cant take pics!
gonna return G's cam back alrdy.
shall take with my phone!
(:
now...
i'm going to supper with eyecandy.
(:

(L) alphabet A
3:13 PM






Cyanide and Happiness, a daily webcomic
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net
(L) alphabet A
2:08 PM






I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over,
where no one knows my name.
I'll get out of California,
I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain.
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired.
I think I need a new town,
to leave this all behind.
I think I need a sunrise,
I'm tired of the sunset.
I hear it's nice in the Summer,
some snow would be nice. oh yeah..

(L) alphabet A
10:06 AM






alright,

i have just done the e-enrolment.
now gonna send all the forms back to NYP.
i admit i procrastinated till last minute!
):
gosh!
i'm sill lack of the photocopy of my result slip.
i seriously got no idea where i throw left it.
i'm so vexed.
i need my chill pills!!

i really cant stay calm and find e bloody result slip in peace.
i'm still sad from what happened.
i'm sad from the ugly truth.
not the truth abt what you've done but abt your lies!
why again and again?
again and again and again?
how many again is enough?

i dont know how many again more i have to bear before i really wash my hands off you.
i believe you know the meaning of sick and tired!
look at my entry like a month back...
i was just saying how depressed i am.
now i'm back to square again.

must i really fcked care you to avoid hurt?

so,
shall go and meet my twin sis later (after i find my result slip).
hope she has got some chill pills!!

H-E-L-P-!
(L) alphabet A
5:19 AM





Thursday, March 29, 2007

i have a sudden bikini, straw hat, huge shades, bright sun, blue sea craving!

haha! i'm cranky!
ooopsy!

sentosa anyone?

today i went out with my mummy!
even though we only went to the bank and cold storage
but i felt happy!
it has been ages since i last went out with her!
i've to admit she has been very nice to me recently.
she's not nagging at my untidy room and junks of soiled clothes,
she sometimes tidy them up for me!
that's like WOW!
the best thing is that we're talking more nowadays.
i tell her more about my life now.
my friends, my twin sister, my eyecandy,
my...my...my everything!
(:
i'm really a happy girl again!
awww..i'm missing my eyecandy!

alright...
wanna lie down on my bed to wait for G's call already!

let the good times roll!
(L) alphabet A
2:33 PM





Tuesday, March 27, 2007

so after appealing,
i got into NYP. Diploma in Marketing (:
i realise i didnt blog abt it b'cos alot of people is asking!
it's a course i wished for!
so, i'm a happy girl (:

life felt so much more meaningful when i know where i'm heading!

let me talk about somebody..

the other day i went out with Cindy Ang Xin Yi.
she's my twin sister.
i'm Cindy Ang Sin Hui (:
cool?
i didnt had time to blog abt it that day so shall update now!

23rd March
we went for medical check up together,
the nurses & doctor asked if we're twins.
it's been like this since pri sch.
teachers asked if we were twins at that time too.

we then had pasta mania at cine.
oh yes!
my favourite marinara!
i adore!
(although i cant eat that much of prawns)
we chatted over dinner.
so so much to talk about man
and, it's not gossip i'm saying!

we then stroll in the rain to Heeren
(:
hee! we took neo-prints (x2)
seriously,
we're behaving like long lost sisters!
we even cam-whore in the neo-prints machines!
after shopping a little in Heeren,
we then stroll our way to far-east.
there, we bought same hp socks and same elmo pencil case.
we didnt buy much actually!
must wait for her pay to come!
and my school fees are weighing on me!
:(
it's amazing how we can be so similar!
we're glad we never like the same dude thou!
hahaha!
a stupid unglam picture taken on her phone marks the end of our date!

cant wait to meet up with her again!

oh yah,
we've agreed to go to sch together when sch starts.
wheeeeeeeeeee...

anyway,anyone going same course as me?
tag me!
((:
(L) alphabet A
3:05 PM





Saturday, March 24, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARENCE!!!
(L) alphabet A
12:40 PM





Friday, March 23, 2007

okay, my Genting trip.

i should say it wasn't great.

i didn't sleep at all the whole trip there.
it was 4:45am when we arrived,
and the weather was bad.
it was pouring.
haha!
know what's the fantastic thing?
we can only check in at 10am.
like wtf man!

so we walked around,
shopped the closed shops,
stared the not-moving Ferris wheel,
passed the closed pubs,
attempted the cyber cafe,
ate the roti prata with teh tarik,
ate the prawn mee, spaghetti, and wanton mee,
and finally back to the lobby.
it was only half pass 7.
oue eyelids were heavy.
(it was obvious, they were literally dropping)
and we slept pathetically at the pathetic chairs.

after 2hours,
the number call started from no.45
and we were 153.
ARRGH!
i nearly went crazy.
the process of seeing the numbers jumped slowly is agonising!
then we checked in at 10:30

our initial plan was to take a little nap and then meet at 2.
but,
when i woke up..it was alrdy 5.

so, we went for buffet which isn't very yummy...
then we bought the ticket for the indoor theme park.
(:
played Euro Express (x2), Bumper Car (x2), Ferris wheel
and went to the Motion threatre.
then we da bao KFC back to hotel room for supper.
we ate at room 9771 which is Jerry & Yvonne's room.
ooops! it was disastrous!
chilli sauce stains on the bed,
Marinda Orange on the floor.
the two guys then went to meet their friends for a drink.
we girls played a little card game and had small talks in the room.

there goes the first day!

we went for free breakfast buffet at the hotel resturant the next morning.
i find it quite okay but they dont like it.
oh well...
then they went back to sleep in the hotel room.
as for me...
i went for retail therapy.
how can i miss that out??!

i made full use of the two hours!
bought myself a Fox Rider shirt,
bought my mum a Abercrombie shirt,
bought my bro a Radioactive shirt,
bought G a nice shirt.

we wanted to play the outdoor theme park,
but they're not operating due to the heavy rain the previous day.
arsehole.
so we're sad!
then we went to the Ripley's believe it or not.
haha!
it was fun!
i cam-whored!

while waiting for the bus back,
we also cam-whored!!!

i'll upload the photos when i get the cable frm G.
so thankful for G's cam!
i so want my own camera!
haha!!

okay! off to meet my angeline already!
(L) alphabet A
6:44 AM





Thursday, March 22, 2007

i went to meet Angeline at Bugis.
we've been working together and there was no way we could go out together!
so today was our first date!
yay-ness!
(:
okay,
it was fun.

my initial plan was to go clubbing tonight so i wore this top..
that reveals my back.
(i mean it! bare back! the WHOLE back)
i thot it was okay, but it wasnt.
G was right.
it's just not suitable in daylight.
i guess people cant accept it yet,
and their stares totally make me feel uncomfortable too.
but i believe,
other than stares of unelief,
there are also appreciative stares too.
this guy came straight up to me and compliment me.
the truth is i felt good!
but when i change my mind about going clubbing,
i bought a Mickey shirt to change.
i cant stand the attention i'm getting!

then we had dinnner at the Teens cafe.
we got free Teens.
Only both of us in the whole cafe got it free.
i wonder why...
maybe because i drew 3smiles on the order paper under the 'Request' column..
wahahaha!
Angel was sitting opp me at our table then she was telling me..
people are staring at my back...
especially these two ladies who cant stop looking..
After like 5mins,
she suddenly burst into laughter.
she say the wo ladies topple their drink.
so i jokingly said my back was cursed.
then she laugh even louder.
HAHAHAHA.
okay, not funny.

oh yes!
at that store call 'black rose',
there was this unglam moment.
haha!
i wanted to buy that Mickey shirt then Angel tell me to try lah..
so i asked the lady whether i can try..
she gave me half a nod plus half a shake
then she told me in a serious tone that the shop doesnt have fitting room.
i turned to look at Angeline and we burst into laughter.
freaking funny!
there was a mirror at the corner of the shop,
you know usually shops in bugis street have this not-so-big fitting room at a tiny corner,
and two dumb dumbs thot got mirror = got fitting room.
it's pretty embarrassing actually...

(:
i cant wait for more dates with her!
we always have the most unglam moments ever,
and i'm starting to love them.
we took neoprints and actually didnt have time to deco.
sounds so noob.
we took photos using her phone.
and the end of 15mins.
we realise all photos are upside down.
how stupid can we get??

after that i went to meet G for supper.
shall leave the details out.
:p
but, i had a grrrrreat time.
hope i dont get your sore eyes.
and please,
you dont have blue eyes!
(L) alphabet A
6:25 PM





Tuesday, March 20, 2007

okay,
i'm pissed.
yeah, pissed.

WHEN DID I SHOW MY BRA TO ANYONE?
unless your everyone is myself?
hahahaha..
joke of the day:
i showed my bra to everyone!

who're u man?
dont even have the guts to show your name.
if you dislike me so much..
then i dont need you to visit my blog
nor tag my blog
nor worry about my disappointing life man.

CRAPP man.

i'm crying over my quarrelling parents, my lost soul mate..
does it bother u?
my EX-CLASSMATE huh?
dont act as if you know me..
because obviously you dont know what's going on in my life.

does clubbing and having a active nightlife make life disppointing?

oh please..
grow up man!

hey,
a person who does a thing like you...
is simply rude.

respect my blog if u choose to read,
and it's my life that i live,
even if it's disappointing to you.

after this entry,
your comments aint gonna affect any tiny bit of me.
fuck off
(L) alphabet A
5:53 PM





Monday, March 19, 2007

Good morning, world.

i didnt went to zouk in the end!
i was too lazy to dressed up and put make up.
so i decided to be a potato crouch!
(:
i watched DVD at home!
i watched 'Perfume' / 'Perfumo'.
it's a french show.
but..
i fell asleep halfway through the show,
thanks to my cough syrup.

Was awaken by calls telling me to meet at 8:30 tonight.
okay, i'm going Genting with my friends
probably till tues night.

Having mixed feelings now actuallly,
i dont know if i'll really enjoy this trip.
But,
i'm still excited with the fact that i get to go into casino.
i've never been inside before.
I wanna play the slot machines!
I wanna go there with RM400 and come back with S$400.
(i'm not greedy)
i shall go eat Marry Brown,
that's what i eat EVERYTIME i go Genting.

Right now,
i'm seriously craving for fish &chips.
somebody please send me fish &chips.
either fish &co, or new york new york.
that will be good!

edited
/
fish &chips from botak jones on the way.
i ADORE!

you're still the best!

(:
i'm a happy girl.
(L) alphabet A
4:11 AM





Saturday, March 17, 2007

If only all I could ever think of is not you

and,
because every single word that comes out from your lips speaks volume
(L) alphabet A
8:02 PM






i went to ikea to buy so so many stuff! i adore!
and, i ate 2 hotdogs.
(:
shall tidy up my room before sch starts!

i'll be going to meet filbert now.
today's his bday
and we're watching the 11:55pm show.
how nice of him to spend only 5mins with me!
we're watching 300.
i bet it's a nice show
(L) alphabet A
1:30 PM





Friday, March 16, 2007

okay folks.
i'm back!

that night i went to chijmes right??
i was so pissed because i cannnot go into Insomia.
must be 23yrs old.
i feel dumbf again.
i was pissed and i showed it.
then because of my piss-ness,
they brought me for supper.
i dint enjoy it at all.
mood's not there, food's not nice.

i dont know what got into the guys (probably drunk)
when they decided to go play billard and only played a round.
like wtf.

i'll be better off at home sleeping man.

after that i went to waisan's house to sleep over.
haha.
her room is full of toys and still toys.
i had a gr8 night sleeping with her eyore.
(:

next day,
i rushed from hougang back to my house
then rushed to TTSH to see doc.

then i went to orchard to get the sunsreen from Vodaskin.
oh, talking about that.
it smells damn fruity. so sweet!
then i did a little shopping.
bought my mini skirt
and this top from a clearance sales at only 10bucks.
then i went to j8 to meet the rest.
and i'm pissed.
the moment i reached there, they tell me they're going heeren!
like wtf!
i showed that i am fpissed.

they went to find weisiong and slack at minitoons.
(i would be better off alone shopping at far east)

then we went to changi airport T2 to wait for aiting to end work.
(:
that's when the happy thing comes along (finally)
i decided to go clubbing with joanne and ai hiang.
we went to Drangonfly @ st james.
NICE! they've got live band.
(:
although
i'm clubbing with so many people who's much older than me,
but i kinda had fun. laughing at that lao tiko guy.
damn. he looked so much like a gay,
wearing a sleeveless striped shirt (like it's ripped off),
with a tie and suspenders!
he keeps on trying to join in when we cheers.
poor kelly was always targeted by him.

girls and women are the same after all.
we gossiped and danced.
ai hiang and me even teased the sound control ah neh.
(:
i guess alot of funny things happened!
but,
i drank quite abit yesterday man.
and this guy call Cornelius made me seh with that drink he treated me.
it was super strong!
when i reached home,
i couldnt even walked a str8 line man!!
haha!
oops!
(L) alphabet A
4:25 AM





Thursday, March 15, 2007

Way Back Into Love - OST Music and Lyrics

I’ve been living with a shadow, over head
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud, above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
just in case I ever need them again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
Oh-oh

I’ve been watching
but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching
but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
there’s gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
and I’m open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping that you’ll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
and if you’ll help me to start again
you know that I’ll be there for you in the end

you know that I'll be there for you in the end..
(L) alphabet A
3:37 PM





Wednesday, March 14, 2007

i'm suppose to go out with liting but she got something on..
so here i am blogging.
since i havent been updating,
i shall say it all at once.

HAHA!

gary says i've become a bad girl.
i think so too..
i'm a night animal now, sleep in the day and active at night.
(:
i have been going to momo these two weeks,
drank and danced till morning everytime.
yeah, drinking is bad, and i'm drinking everyday.
be it beer, volka, taquila or bacardi.
(guess that's what make me a bad girl)
but i didnt get myself drunk yet!
cheers!
(:
i've been a VERY regular customer to orchard party world.
the waiter will be sick of seeing our faces man.

27feb: MiniToons dinner, Party World
28feb: Club Momo
1mar: Party World with TM staff
2mar: Party World
3mar: Shopping (Vivo), Midnight Movie
4mar: Party World
5mar: Party World
6mar: Supper, Party World
7mar: Club Momo
8mar: Went JB, Party World (Bel's farewell), Supper
9mar: Club Momo
10mar: Rest
11mar: Party World (clarence's farewell)
12mar: Rest

this week i can rest more because Clarence went genting
and i'm still pissed with hak ping.
i still thinking whether i should go for the genting trip this weekend.
i should enjoy life before school starts right?
(:
(:
As a result of so many night activities,
i havent been on shopping sprees for quite awhile!
plus, i'm too lazy to go out in the day. (ooops!)
My body clock is ruined!

i havent been cursing and swearing for a while...
but i am going to now.
that girl, we call her SM.
(if u wanna take it as sex maniac, i'm perfectly fine with it)
she's a even-vulgarities-is-too-good-for-her person.
bloodyhell.
i dont know what's her bloody problem.
Firstly, Nobody can stand her attitude problem.
(after i've known her,
i will never anyhow use "attitude problem" on anyone.
nobody can be that bad man!)
she act as if the whole world owe it to her.
Secondly, Nobody adores her big mouth.
damn!
anything that she hears will be broadcast to the whole world.
(i mean what she hears, it's not even not what people tell her)
what's worse?
she twist the whole bloody story before publishing it.
eg.
i told her my friend gave me a Guess? wallet.
and u know what happen?
it becomes i always tell guys to buy things for me.
and this bloody bitch tell this to my friends.
SCREWED UP!
Guess? wallet is from my girlfriend who went Aust.
when i heard it from my friends,
i knew i have to write it all out.
it's how amazing how a Guess? wallet can make me a cheap woman!
Thirdly, Nobody can backstab like her.
She stab her best friend on the back,
lest to say her casual friends.
she once told my friend bad things about my friend's twin sister.
i thot bad people are usually smarter?


and know what?
she commented that my hair was UGLY.
oh yeah? then she went to cut her hair like mine?
how disgusting!
we know she's fucking jealous that H__ P__adores me...
we know she's jealous that J____ is with Yvonne...
we also know she's damn fuck jealous to see XXX sits next to C_______.
but we dont really care!


okay,
i just vent it all out.
how nice! (:

i wanna have a yummylicious dinner today!!
maybe catch a movie later.
(:
(:
i adore!
(L) alphabet A
7:42 AM





Tuesday, March 13, 2007

i'm on the phone with Angeline.
complaining to her about how frustrating it is
to try to please some friends..
i feel so dumbf.
but i'm so glad at least i still have Angeline.
we know we'll always have each other.


nevermind.

this is life.
life is never a bed of roses right?

i went out to meet eugene at cwp for
pastamania and movie.
we watched "Music and Lyrics"
it's a nice show.
i was just telling G i like that song "way back into love"
yesterday night.
(:

damn!
gonna leave house now.
gonna go chijmes.
some pubbing session i guess..
(L) alphabet A
4:11 PM





Monday, March 12, 2007

seriously,
it's so tiring holding on to someone,
knowing that nothing's gonna come outta it.

whether i hang on or let go, i lose!
lose someone who matters so much to me.
lose what i've been holding on to all these years.

the cryings, whinings and sleepness nights had stopped.
finally.
my life is still screwed.
in fact, more screwed than ever,
but,
i have to learn to take baby steps to recovery.

I NEED TO RESET MY GOALS I HAD
before we made plans together.

i'm thankful,
for everyone who was there for me.
(:
(:

and you!
dont break my heart like before.


i love you.
(L) alphabet A
4:43 PM