just to continue from my last entry.
yeah, my plans for Wed right? i accomplish them all.
i'm happy to see the smile on bff's face when she open up the Pizza box to see a hoodie which i bought for her. haha. she asked, "eh, why you put it inside?"
i'm happy to make her day. love!
after i left her shop, i went hunting for a gift for baby.
in the end, i bought the couple tee for us.
kinda sweet but the size S is still big for me.

after searching hard for a adorable card,
i sneaked to pastamania to write sweet nothings for him.
and of course, surprise him.
(:
he's touched i guess.

i havent gave him any surprises since some time ago.

so at least my day had been great until i reach home.

i was really disappointed that this problem keeps coming back.
each time it only got worse..
and this time round i decided i cant take it anymore.
home is no longer comfortable for me.
i agree it's not that they are heartless or whatever shit but...
i guess we just cant communicate well.
and i believe it's no point for me to stay there trying to argue with my folks.
i swear i cried hard over this again and agin.

so, i moved in with my granny now.


she pampers me like always.
(:
finally some home cooked food after so long.
and someone to talk to and at least she tries to understands.
it's nice the way she ask me whether i brought my ez-link out each time.
hee.

life still goes on.

oh yeah, went to kbox on deepavali night.
it was a little expensive but it feels great screaming and sing aloud into the mic.
it feels good to get a little tipsy with Chivas too.
just was still vexed with the folks' affairs.

sometimes i wish to share when friends ask but..
it's hard to express my feelings and why i'm so down.
i dont deny the fact that i thot maybe being dead will be better off
and i tried to kill myself with some antibiotics, panadol and cough syrup,
so did i try to jump from 9th floor.
i mean isn't it the easiest way to escape?
but dont worry, i wont be so silly anymore.

i'm still the happy girl that people sees.

(:

later after this boring lecture ends,
i shall finally go back home to move my stuff to granny's place.
hmmmm, hope only nobody is a home.

isn't my life like super rocky?
full of ups and downs?
and kinda screwed, too screwed sometimes?

oh well, still have to live with it.
it will make me a stronger, more independent girl i guess.
and i'm perfectly fine now if not i wouldn't be blogging to tell the whole world about my pathetic life. haha.

okay. that's all for now.

ps. granny's place got no internet connection alrdy so i wont blog so often. :(
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