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CINDY
my curiosity for you eats into my sleep.





IN MY HEART I KEEP:

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Sunday, March 30, 2008



Change is the only constant in life.
Only stubborn and proud people reject change.
I have decided to stick with love.
Hate is too great a burden to bear.


I spend a saturday at home not just watching tv and doing some rot-to-death stuff...
(the initial plan has backfired that's why i stayed at home in the first place)


I look back at my life,
and I think it's not fruit filling enuff.
Have I live a life which I'm truly happy?
No.
So, I asked myself what is best for me?

It's true that nobody is perfect, and I'm one full of flaws.
I'm temperamental and people close to me suffers. I shoot nasty words out at people sometimes.
I dont deny I hate some people and I talk bad about them all the time when I have every chance to. I keep thinking that they suck, they are a bitach by doing blah, blah, blah things to me or whomever. I know it's wrong but the excuse I gave myself is every girl gossips. Or, I know they hate me too so why not? Now that I think of it, I chuckle. How foolish!
I remembered when I was still going to church,
there were very often altar calls to release forgiveness and let go of all bitterness and hurt deep in us. As a human soul, we tend to bear unforgiveness in our hearts which left us shutting ourselves up as a form of self-defence fearing of getting hurt again.
But, when one dont forgive from deep within, one can never treat that person who had hurted you the same as before.
I never believe in having too many resolutions of life. That is simply trying too hard to change. Two for now is enough.
:D:D:D

1. Control my temper
2. True forgiveness


Sometimes, I dont know what is it, it's like a calling.
The thought came into me that maybe I should go back to where I fell.
This is a phrase I've always put in my heart back then.
Love and pity and wish well to every soul in the world;
dwell in love, and then you dwell in God.
Although I dont go to church anymore, but I still know and believe in the power of God's love.
And, I dispise at myself for doing a childish act back then. oh well..
At the same time, I truly miss all my friends in church, inluding michelle.




I'm Yours



Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
i love peaceful melody
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is shortThis is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what i'ma saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't hesitate
no more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is yours!


I adore this song


off to bed. sweet dreams.
(:
(L) alphabet A
1:59 PM