Wednesday, May 21, 2008
As usual, went out with shirlyn and the guys after school.
Everything seems to be good until a sms came and suddenly my world seems to be like falling apart. And then I just cannot help but cry. I want so much to share with those around me but I really can't. I just want to cry. I felt that crying was the best way to make me feel better.
When someone is always there for you and suddenly this special someone is gone, I really feel empty deep down there. And that is when I realised how much he matters to me.
I cried like throughout the movie not because it's touching of course.
Nonetheless, it's my type of romance story. I would have enjoyed it more if I'm not feeling down.
The guys wanted to shop around after the movie so I decided to go off first. I don't want to embarrasse myself. People will think I'm crazy. My friends all laughing and having a great time while I'm hiding behind sobbing.
I went to Qingling's house and talked to her and we both knows what is best for me. And I just hoped everything is not too late. I just hope Saint is fine. I just hoped I will be fine too.

I know I look retarded. Thanks to Fernandes who zoom in on my face.

"Bu yao noob lei"


I know it has been hard for you to let me go now. After all, it hadn't been easy for us ever since then. I know you had been afraid that I only want to keep you as a friend. I'm sorry. Sorry won't make you feel less pain in the heart but that is perhaps the only thing I can say now. I want you to know that I still care alright? Now and always. As for the rest, I want to talk to you face to face. Now, I hope you know I'm really sorry. I don't feel good here either. I'm truly sorry.
(L) alphabet A
5:30 PM