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CINDY
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Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Can you see that my right eye is swollen?

It's actually getting more obvious as days passed.

All photos are taken using the lousy front camera of my phone.

I havent touch my camera since don't known when.

I shall show you my closed up right eye.

Damn it. It has become damn painful and red today.

And I look like I am punched on the eye if I don't wear spects.

Nonetheless, I tried acting cute but somehow, I look like a retard.

I promised more photos when my eye recover okay?

The one in red is the fatass. I scared the table break when he sits on it. ooops.

Let's talk about Yeong Meng.

Yeong Meng is a friend of Zhang Yan but only a classmate to me. He only smiles and waves enthusiastically to her. He is funny sometimes and irritating or should I say weird on other times. Also, his interpretation of love story and the way he tucks in his shirt can be really alarming and astonishing to us. He likes to read, play his DS and goes to class real early. He can give a good narrative speech (I suppose) but usually he really talks like a bullet train and too softly. Like Horton talking to Whos.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not like mocking at him.

Although he shouted at me for nothing last month, he still apologised to me after that.

From that day, my opinions of him changed a lot.

He is kind-hearted deep down. And we really shouldn't judge a person just by our first impression or by just what you heard from others.

I have to admit at this point of time, I have tons of heart-felt feelings which I wished I can typed out. Sometimes, it all feel so unreal. I can't say my thoughts on my own personal blog just so as to prevent another childish, barbaric conflict. Turning a blind eye to certain actions, words, comments, certain people can really make life easier. I keep telling myself, it's easier to love than hate which also explains my pet phrase - Forgive and Forget. Isn't it tiring to bear grudges, put up a front but stab at the back? What do you benefit from all these?

Why care too much about who is together with who. Care comes from the bottom of our hearts. Does it really matter if your friend is with a person you dislike? What worse is you discontinue to befriend him/her just because of this? Then do you really care?

Friends share joy and sorrows together. Friends have unconditional love also.

Just to convey a message that I probably can only convey it through here.

I have never asked him to distance from you girls. Even if I was his girlfriend, I still don't have any rights to stop him from talking to you people. I know he treasures his friendship with all of you. I know initially I overeacted. Now it is not the case. I have learn to see things from another point of view. So c'mon. It's tiring for both sides.

Most importantly, he will be the one suffering most when he is stucked between us. There is no such thing as who is ranked first in his heart or who is more important. For as much as I know, Brenda (his mum) is the number one in his heart. As his friends, I think he really needs us to be understanding. He has problems and difficulties which we won't know because he is used to keeping to himself. So, as his close friends, the more we should not add troubles to him. He can't handle stress that well.

I know to you girls, I perhaps suck big time or perhaps just too lousy for him. But I have to say that love doesn't need a reason and a good guy will not stop loving a girl for what other people comment about her. He can judge for himself. And same theory, I respect that all of you are his friends. And I know all of you care for him truely so I won't stop him. It's all about give and take sometimes. Me and all of you may have nothing in common, we are only classmates but I'm sure we all want to see a happy and cheerful him.

After reading this, perhaps you may think I'm trying to act or whatever you may say. Or even hate me more. I have nothing to say and I won't revolt because to me it doesn't really matter. I just hope at the end of the day, his poly life is not full of ugly but beautiful memories. And the last thing I want to see is him being too depressed saying things like he has no love and no friends.

On a lighter side, look at this QL. Funny. Dui lian, dui lian. Hahaha.

And I'm glad I know no matter what happen I have unconditional love from my aunties.

They gave me strength when I'm weak, They add colours to my life.

QL, ZY and SE just rock my world.

And sorry that I was really emotional and hot tempered today. I really have too many thoughts in my mind. In fact, a heavy heart and a heavy right eye. LOL.

Don't worry,I feel so much better now. It's good to "pen" down your thoughts.

Tomorrow I'm not going to school. I need a doctor more than anything else now. Too bad for the test, my right eye is more important. I don't wanna be pirate cindy or ang lian lian (this is a personal joke with my aunties).

p.s. I better get some tags after writing such a long winded post. In another words, tag please.

Alright, now I have heavy eyelids. Goodnights.

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